This afternoon I watched this short film by Jackie Files and it made me reflect on my own sentiment and nostalgia tying into the things I own. In the film the young woman is visiting her childhood bedroom and considering her belongings within, one by one. Memories come back to her as she moves from photos and books to her box of journals. There is a moment in the film where she takes out a black journal and her smile vanishes. She sets it aside and doesn't open it. I have been exactly in that place with that uncomfortable aversion to the memories an object brings back. I don't have to look, I know what's in that journal.
The woman decides to open it. She thinks about being alone, and how it can be so, so difficult and what it feels like to want to be loved and feel a part of a group. Many, many people can relate to that aching feeling. We all have memories we dislike looking back on, and oftentimes our belongings are the strongest connection to those memories. It can be hard to let go of those things, and sometimes we want to, and sometimes we don't. I think I'm reaching a part of my life where I can let go and live in the present far more than I'm used to.
Jackie was kind enough to give me permission to share her film on my blog. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did!